Ryan MacDonald
Author & Speaker
Real Stories. Real Trauma. Real Courage.

For three decades I served on the frontline—first as a military veteran, then as a senior police officer leading major crime investigations and critical incidents. I saw life at its rawest: violence, fear, trauma and the human impact most people never witness. I carried it all in silence—until that silence nearly killed me.

Today, I write and speak openly about trauma, resilience and the cost of service on identity and mental health. I don’t do this to entertain—I speak to tell the truth. My work reaches people because it’s real. Built on lived experience. Delivered with purpose.

Ryan's story

Blue Lights, Dark Mind – 
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Blue Lights, Dark Mind is a raw, powerful memoir from Ryan— a former frontline senior police officer turned mental health advocate. From murder scenes to moments of breakdown, this is the untold story of what happens behind the blue lights. Honest, harrowing, and ultimately hopeful, it’s a journey through trauma, identity, and the fight to reclaim your life.
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Speaking

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I deliver powerful talks across the UK to organisations, frontline services, schools, universities, charities and mental health events. My message is direct, honest and unforgettable.

Resilience after trauma
Leadership under pressure
The silent battles of men
Life after breakdown
The cost of service - and the fight to rebuild

I write about the realities of trauma, identity, resilience and purpose. My work includes:

The Duty Inspector – my Substack writing platform
Blood & Salt – my upcoming Scottish crime novel
The StrongMind Method Journal - reflective mindset journal (coming soon)

Media & Consultancy

I support TV, film and publishing projects as a policing advisor and subject matter expert in crime investigation, trauma realism and operational accuracy.

Media enquiries

Ryan works selectively throughout the year due to wellbeing and availability. Early booking is advised.

Ryan shares lived experience and does not provide therapy, counselling or crisis support.

  • "Powerful. Real. The most impactful talk we’ve had."
  • "A speaker who changes the room."
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Ryan MacDonald

Author & Speaker

Ryan shares lived experience and does not provide therapy, counselling or crisis intervention.
If you or someone you know is struggling, support is available:
NHS 111 • Samaritans 116 123 (24/7)

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